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There are so many times when I wonder what my life would have been like if I had grown up in Toronto. Growing up in the States, specifically in the South, has been… hard.  In case you haven’t met me, I’m not white. I’m not black. I’m not Hispanic. I don’t fit. I have no […]

Fear

Fear is the root of life. As of now, I don’t think that’s actually a saying, but it’s true… isn’t it? We act on fear: fear of failure, fear of losing something or someone, fear of change, fear of letting people in; fear rules us. And to tell the truth   I am scared.   […]

Okay versus bad

Life got hectic again. Too many responsibilities. Too many messes to clean up. Too much baggage to take out to the dumpster. I am trying. This in itself is nothing short of a miracle. I am trying. I will not pull away. I will not push you away. I am trying. Please don’t push me […]

Game on

I tend to live in a constant state of irritation and anger. Sometimes it’s below the surface, dormant. Quietly brewing like a pot of coffee on the kitchen counter just as dawn breaks. Other times… oh, other times, it’s as if all the rage inside an entire race of people has been unleashed inside of […]

I am me

I’m twenty-seven now. Over the hill. I turned twenty-six and realized that the day I turn thirty, the world better watch out, because it’s imminent: I will have an epic breakdown. By this point in my life I thought I would have had more figured out. I would have found the right guy, had the […]

Seasons

  This was the summer I chose to be young. I drank too much, made mistakes with a worthless guy. Laughed, cried, partied, and pretended for two months of bliss that I was young.   This was the summer I chose to lose love. In losing love I allowed my feelings for an insignificant suitor […]

Vanity.

Vanity. Self- aggrandizing piece of shit. Who do you think you are? Look into a mirror and what do you see? Perfection I’m sure. You never did get tired of hearing how pretty you were. Please note I said were. Beauty is fleeting It’s a cliché for a reason And one day you’ll wake up […]